I looked out of the window to witness the fluffy white snow taking over the entire city. Everything was clad in white. Finally December was here. As I watched the cars pass the wet street my mind took a dive down the memory lane of 2012. Yes it was December; the very end of 2012 was here. It was only yesterday I was welcoming 2012 by starting my first day in my dream engineering university. Hyping up with New Year confessions and resolutions I had stepped in my career as an engineer with excitement about new friends and new social circle. I made new friends, met some real good teachers, mentors, friends who stood by me, friends who left me in the mid, sarcasms which pushed me forward , taunts which often brought salty tears to eyes only to be rubbed off by super strength with promises of never seeing that person’s face again. Laughter and joy accompanied the journey, while tears and sorrows came as hurdles, accidents became magnets for me and some how in the mid I was able to survive and push through to the unseen ragged condition now, only to be called as a very fierce survivor.
With super cool friends to accompany me throughout the roller coaster ride of the year, there were moments when I felt alone, dejected, when literally I found it impossible to survive, the pain, the loss, the heart that bled again and again. The mind that got numb in making decisions, the feelings that got hurt again and again, the patience that inbuilt in me throughout a fight, the strength to save relations and to let go of the person who once meant a lot to me. With every day learning about something new , something evil, something good, to find that I can never explore the full faces of life, to find that there are some people who acknowledged my life while some don’t. A whole lot insults, barbarous comments, cat fights, compliments, sarcasms from friends; somehow I feel that tonight as I ink my thoughts , I am not the same person I used to be. Maybe now more serious, or more strong or even at times situations made me heartless. Yes I changed… for good or bad? I cannot say…
An year has almost passed and the brain is still stuck somewhere in the good memories of 2012. The labyrinth seem unwilling to let me leave it and enter a new phase. With both good and bad experiences, bad more, am I ready to face the New Year yet? Am I strong enough to tackle yet a new and mysterious world? Tis not a good bye, there is always another way out- a new world , a new year, a fresh start. Let bygones be bygones, time is here to cure all hatred, to buck up all remaining fuel and charge up the spark to be ignited on the New Year eve. To take along old friends and make new ones, to leave behind those who never wished good for you; Yes you are given another year to live, another chance to make things better, chance to move on, chance to fulfill your dreams. You never know whats there out tomorrow except the belief that what ever is out there you can face it, fight it, make it submit to your wishes, your commands. Time to finally gear up and remove evil, to nurse your good side, to forgive and to forget, to strengthen up to seek forgiveness.
It is never a good bye… there is always a chance to make it up for… Before the night ends or even before the clock strikes 12 am of 1st January 2013, make sure you have made this year worth, to leave behind all bad and carry along all the good moments. Think and reflect..Happy new fresh life in advance.Cheers!!! let the count down begin…
~~ Wajiha Shahid
Wajiha Shahid 